How Do You Want To Feel Today?

A sensation of emptiness gently fills my body and mind.



It’s like that feeling when your missing someone, except I don’t miss anyone now.
At least, not anyone I am consciously aware of.

The feeling grows, spreads from my stomach to the back of my eyes. Not tears, just a gentle pressure which lets me know that there’s something wrong.

I want to explore this feeling, try to grasp what my sensations are telling me. But am I prepared to face the sorrow which I feel will reveal itself if I enter this vast void inside myself?

Perhaps it has allways been there.
Perhaps have I just connected to something inside of me which I have blocked out for years.
Perhaps it has just recently been created, but why I don’t know.

What is sorrow?
What is emptiness? 

There's so much noise

There is just so much noise.

Every day, everywhere I go, there is noise. Noise filling my ears, my head, my brain and my thoughts.

E.g. when sitting in my cubicle at work, there are so many people around me, talking and chatting, typing and writing, listening to music (which I only hear the baseline from their earplugs), drinking, eating, tapping their feet, and so on and so on.

Noise.

And outside, there are cars, airplanes and a big crane which makes a very cruel noise when lifting stuff that the workers there are going to hammer into place.

More noise.

And when going home, I can choose between the noise from the traffic, or I can choose to listen to music on my Muvo, but that will only block out part of the noise.
I need silence.
Silence.
Peace.


With all the technology available, why haven’t anyone invented earplugs or headsets which brings complete silence?

It can’t be that hard?

And, I don’t want something the size of an orange sitting on the sides of my head, I just want a nice little thing to stick in my ear. Preferably something which I can configure to say, e.g. “ok, now I accept phonecalls” (directly to the plug), or “ok, let conversations in” (preferably from people with pleasant voices.


I have, today, discovered a nice alternative while waiting.
I usually listen to the radio on my way to and from work, but that also gets pretty noisy sometimes.

But, today I discovered the music which is probably the nearest thing you get to silence.
At least, it feels that way for your soul:
Check out one (out of 140!) of the radiostations on Classical Webcast.

They “attempt to collect all live-broadcasting classical radio stations on the Web”, and I think they are doing pretty well.

Hopefully it works as well for you as it does for me: I now have a way to block the noise out, by bringing classics in  

Fear of the Unknown.

We fear so much what we do not know, first of all the future.

No one knows what the future will bring, but we do our best to control it.


Losing control equals fear, and our brain relate fear to pain.

So, we automatically try to avoid ut, and regarding the future, we try to do what we know best, so that we avoid unknown situations which could bring fear upon us.

By repeating our old habits, instead of trying new things, we keep a feeling of safety, because we know what these habits will bring us.

Even if the habit is actually giving us an amount of negativity in life, they are safer than doing something new


To let go and seize the moment, is so much more difficult than not doing it, even if it brings pain not to do it. If you want to talk to another person, it can be harder to walk the steps over to her desk than to stay put at your own, even if the pain for not taking that walk is dreadful.


Why are we so afraid of the unknown?

Why do we stick to our old ways, even when they bring pain?


Because we relate to them as something we’ve done before, and even if that leads to sorrow, lonelyness and negative thoughts, breaking through is so scary that we choose the pain.

If you never try it, you'll never know.
Take that chance.
Break your habit.
Think new.
Just do it.
Trust yourself.
Have faith.


Love's Loopy Logic @ Psychology Today